Prior to January 2016, I had been gluten free for 5 years. I was mostly dairy free, occasionally testing my tolerance to plain Greek yogurt (which never ended well). I also avoided any processed food with soy lecithin, and limited the amount of edamame and tofu I consumed. But I was still having trouble with my poor little belly, which has bloated every single day since I was 11 (now 17 years). I was still experiencing some discomfort, some gas, some irregularity with the bathroom, and my joints all started to hurt pretty badly. The joint discomfort can mostly be attributed to my long commute (which I no longer have), except I feel like there is some underlying issue.
So I decided it's time to pay even more attention to what I eat, and what I put on my skin. I've been researching a lot about anti-inflammatory foods, and what exactly makes healthy foods so 'healthy'. With a little convincing from my husband, I decided it was time to go refined sugar free. You'd think for someone who has cut out so many things, this would be a walk in the park.
This summer, General Mills put out "Gluten Free" Honey Nut Cheerios. I don't normally eat a lot of processed food, and I didn't really want the cereal but for some reason, I bought it. Before I gave up refined sugar, I used to eat cereal a lot as dessert.
So at night, I'd have my "safe" cheerios. Every morning, I was getting sick. Like can't leave the toilet to get to the car for a while sick. And when I finally could, I dreaded my hour long commute. There were a few days where I seriously thought I was going to shit my pants on the way. I had to make it through 2 miles of traffic to pull off the highway and try to find a place with a bathroom in time. I'd tilt my seat back, unbutton my pants, and try so hard to breathe. My stomach would be rumbling- shooting pain in every direction, sweat running down my forehead from fear of the worst and my anxiety causing shortness of breath. I was in all out panic mode, trying to beat my stomach's timing. Fortunately, there was never an accident and I didn't ruin any pants. But, there were EXTREMELY close calls. I was always mortified, confused, and felt like spending the rest of the day in the back seat hiding.
It's Day 1 of your new lifestyle, and you have not a clue what to eat. All you're thinking about is what you can't eat, what you'll never have again, how no one understands, and why did this have to happen to you? You don't have time to cook, you don't have time to care, you just want to have fun and be normal. For the love of god, why can't you just be normal?
It's okay! And you are normal, at least for someone making huge changes to your diet & lifestyle! I think my tear duct is still repairing itself after the way I exploded into eating Gluten free.
If you are frustrated with your body, or with food, you are not alone! I, and so many others I talk to, struggle with intolerances, or unsolved mysteries of their body's relationship with food. If you're not sure what is making you sick, that sucks. And if you thought you had it all figured out, but now you're not so sure, that sucks too. There are other people who are experiencing what you are, and there are plenty of people who've already gotten through it. We can learn from each other and help each other out. These posts are more about the emotions of having food intolerances -- read some of the other categories for recipe tips, and fun food face masks! One thing I have always loved is playing with my food, so I try to do that as much as possible to keep myself smiling.